Yeah, about what I said in the last journal, I meant "...after the 2nd quarterly exams".//shot
I've been studying a lot in the past few months because of the trauma from last year's failure. I also do advanced studies because I tend to get really (I mean REALLY)
nervous during class discussions (which means almost every school day)
, nervous that I might get called by the teacher and ask me a question. I know! It's such a small thing to be nervous about, I have no idea why I can't stop feeling this. Whenever I get nervous, my hands get really cold and voice becomes shaky, and when I answer with that kind of voice, I'll feel embarrassed, and when I feel embarrassed, my mind will keep repeating it until I'll feel like I wanted the ground to eat me. I HATE MYSELFF!!!
So, I have no choice but to study every single day so that I'll feel less nervous. The nervousness never left me, not once. =_= (Unless it was computer or art class.)
And yeah, I study a lot because my mind won't stop bugging me if I know I still have something to do (for school)
or if we have class discussions the next day (<That usually prevents me from drawing.)
I was able to do a few sketches but I wasn't able to color them since I don't have time to find a new coloring style that I like xD. Well, I finally found one this sembreak after spending 24345 decades watching speed paints and reading tutorials over and over again.